There have been so many times in my life where I wish I'd said something, or I wish I'd done something different, or I wish I'd not said anything at all. We all have these times. We all have those humiliating times where things go completely opposite to what you planned, and it feels like the world is ending. But then, we look back a few months later and smile. We think to ourselves, 'hey, that actually taught me not to do that again.' or 'hey, that just made me stronger.'
I may just be 14, but certain things have happened to me that meant I had to grow up pretty fast... probably faster than your average person of my age. Don't get me wrong - I'm not saying I know everything; I'm not saying I'm an adult. I know for a fact that I'm still learning; on a daily basis, I learn things and realise things that I never thought possible. I still act like a teenager, I still need my mum like I need air, I still love pop music and talking about pointless things with my friends that won't affect us in years to come. But the things that have happened have affected other parts of my life, and so I've had to learn things.
For a long time I've been thinking of starting a blog, but I always thought it was kind of weird for a 14-year-old to have a blog. But then I realised that there's bigger and worse things to worry about than what a bunch of teenagers think of me for having a blog where I share random things I make and think. And if you're someone I know, reading this right now thinking 'Wow, she's such a weirdo, who would want a blog' or 'what a freak, she thinks she's an adult', feel free to stop reading because... if you don't really like me and want to insult me... why are you reading in the first place? - Why are you so interested in me that you actually wasted the time to read this?
Anyways, I wanted to make this blog to share my thoughts. Because I'm an M.E sufferer (more on that at a later date), I spend a lot of my time in bed or stuck at home. So I wanted to share my thoughts with the world and share my paintings, music, jewellery - anything - with you guys. If you're reading this, thank you for taking the time to be interested in what I have to say. And if you're a person I know wanting to insult me and you're still reading this... seriously, what are you still doing reading this?
In 14 years, I've dealt with a lot. A lot. But who hasn't dealt with a lot at some point in their life? - Like I said before, at the end of the day, these little mishaps make us stronger. Sometimes, it's worth saving yourself a huge heartache and replacing it with a slightly smaller one. Sometimes, it's worth saying what you want, even if it's not necessarily the right thing, but it's worth it because it gets it off your chest.
I called this blog "On a Journey", because although I feel like I've walked a thousand miles through wind, rain, sunshine and storms... I know I still have miles to go. I'm at the beginning of an amazing journey and it's gonna be a bumpy ride. It already has been a bumpy ride. But I'm on a journey, and I wanted to blog about it because... well... just because.
I hope you like my posts, they'll be filled with (hopefully) wisdom, creativeness, random thoughts and pretty pictures.
Lots of love, prayers and hope being sent your way.
Ellie x x
Really like this one so far! I know that being 14 sounds like a handicap, but young people are perfectly capable of having meaningful insights into life - actually I think the idea of being on a journey is one of the best images (for me at least) to put things into perspective. Life's an odd journey, because it doesn't really have a tangible end, and you don't know where you are trying to go when you set out to get there. But that's part of the fun because you never know where it will lead you next!
ReplyDeleteEveryone goes through a lot of stuff in their lives, but the majority of it can make you stronger *if* you deal with it correctly. Some people make the mistake of thinking nobody else ever hurts as much as they do and that they should therefore wallow in self-pity and/or take it out on others; others think hurt is so commonplace that they just close up to life and stop taking risks to minimise the hurt, but the most wonderful things in life involve making yourself vulnerable to other people.
Personally, I think the most important things are to forgive people even if they don't deserve it (or even admit they need forgiven), and to keep on loving - don't let your heart get hardened by the pain life can and will throw at you. Simple, but by no means easy! Enjoy the journey while you walk it, and love the people who walk with you. :)
Exactly! :) You've got my idea down to a T. xx
DeleteLovely post Ellie xx
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