Find Your Passion

Someone once told me, when discussing what I wanted to do with my life, that you should always choose an in-demand career; something that people want and/or need. For example, a hairdresser, plumber, doctor, electrician, teacher, etc.
      At the time, I wanted to be a hairdresser, so this advice made me feel happy because it was something secure; something that I knew people would want in years to come.

But I've come to realise that while the safe and secure option is probably the most logical option to go for when choosing a career - I'd much rather do something I love, rather than something I hate just to keep me living.
      For ages, I've been saying that I want to be a teaching assistant, or a dance teacher, or a chef. As much as I am passionate about all these things, and as much as they'll make good money and are fairly secure... I don't feel like I'd be overly in love with the life I lived. I mean, sure, it would pay the bills and keep my head above water; but it wouldn't fill me with joy and it wouldn't keep my heart happy.

I think that, in life, you have to find your passion and run with it. No matter how much trouble it causes you, how hard it is to achieve, etc. I think it's very important to do something you love, even though it may not cover everything you need to cover. After all, I'd rather go to work every day, love it with all my heart and soul, and not make as much as I would as, say, a hairdresser. I'd rather do that than stick with the easy option and play it safe.
      I am in no way saying that hairdressing, dance teaching etc is easy; but, for me, that's the cop out - the back up plan. But I don't want a back up plan. I want spontaneity, passion, failures and wins.
I want to make music and speak to people through lyrics and my story. That's what I want to do. That's what I have to do.

It's a big, scary world out there, and sometimes it's even scarier when you know your dream is hard to achieve: when you know that you're going to be rejected, or you're going to fail sometimes. But I believe that if you find your passion and you feel you're called to do it, you have to take God's hand and trust in his love. Your faith and passion is all it takes. When your passion is calling you, do whatever it is you have to do, even if it means defying everything people expect of you.

"Find your passion and run with it."

"Get out and let your fear fall to the ground, 

no time to waste, don't wait, 

and don't you turn around and miss out

On everything you were made for,

I know you're not sure;

so you play it safe,

try to run away..."

I feel like God is calling me to pursue my music rather than anything else. I feel like (and hope that) God is going to use me through music. That's my passion, that's what I have to do.

If you feel called to do something - do it with all your heart. All your heart. 

Lots of love xxxx

PS. I hope you all had beautiful and blessed Christmases. I hope  you're having peaceful holidays. ♥♥♥

One of my Passions

Lately I've really been having the urge and the desire to help people. I don't know why, but I just feel the need to help people and animals; I always have. I've always wanted to volunteer in places, ever since I was a little girl. I've always raised money for charity and always wanted to make other people happy. 

I want to put my extreme passion in to making a difference in the world. 
      I want to share God's word; I want to help young girls to get through self esteem issues and help them get through problems; I want to help animals... I want to do so many things in this world. I think that helping people is where my passion lies, really. All my dancing, my song-writing and my blogs all boil down to wanting to help people. I want to help people find help in dancing, save people with music and inspire people with my blog. 

There's a Britt Nicole interview that I watched once, and she was saying how once she asked God what her purpose in life was - and he just said "to love". After hearing this, I really, firmly believe that my purpose in life is also to love, to help people. I've always had a passion for it. 

I'm constantly praying to God to give me ideas and ways to help, inspire, encourage. Even the tiniest things and ideas I just love doing - it's almost like, providing for other people is  what gives me air in my lungs and what keeps me going everyday. 
      That's why, when people message me saying that my blogs have really inspired or helped them (you know who you are!), I get so happy and know that I can go to sleep that night with the knowledge that I have helped someone... even if it's just in the slightest way.

There have been so many people in my life that have inspired me. Some are people I know personally and some are celebrities. Either way, they've all helped shape me in to the person I am today. I hope that, one day, I can help people in the same way that these people  have helped me. I hope I become an inspiration for someone out there, that I can keep them going for as long as they need it, because if I can save one person's life, then my life will be made. 

I'll keep praying for my chance to change the world, to help people. Until the opportunity arises, I'll help in a smaller way whenever I can.

"When you get the chance, are you gonna take it? 

There's a really big world at your fingertips, 

and you know you have the chance to change it." 

♥

Change Is Good

I've been looking back on a lot of old pictures recently and it was weird because I hardly recognised myself. Not just because I looked different but because I was so different in my self as well.

I used to be the kind of girl that wanted things to happen but never actually took action. I was the kind of girl who walked around apologetically with my arms folded and a mind that thought "please no one notice me". The kind of girl who said she didn't want to fit in, but actually, deep down, she really did. I was that girl at school who was picked on at secondary school for my weight and my voice and how I liked to do things. I used to just ignore it and walk on by.
I didn't like myself that much, but I enjoyed life. All I used to want was to be wanted by a boy and be in a cute relationship for years and then grow up to be married.

It makes me smile very bittersweet-ly when I look back on these pictures. I smile happily when I think of the very little amount of issues I had back then, and also when I see all of the family together under one roof - all of us as happy as we can be. But then I also smile sadly because I realise that I'll never be able to go back, but then I kind of figure that even though those times won't come back, the memories will never leave. None of the issues I have in the present day can take away the fact that those times did happen and did exist.

The girl I am now is so much different, and in the past six months I have changed so much. I'm not even sure I know who that girl is from October 2012. I used to be so insecure, I used to hate change and I used to not know what I believed and what I didn't believe. 

Now, I'm the kind of girl who can't live without a little bit of change in my life. I love changing things around. I'm still insecure, but isn't everyone? I like myself a lot more now, and when people hate on me about something, I'm no where near as bothered as I used to be! I'm facing a lot of changes every single day, even if I don't notice it. Things change for every one every second. It may sound like a bad thing, but you should embrace change rather than seeing it as something terrifying. God will never give you a situation that you're not strong enough to handle, so even if you're having to make a huge change in your life that you don't particularly want to make - just remember that there's a bigger purpose. 

This is one thing I wish I knew back then.
One thing I also wish I'd to anyone who ever bullied me was the picture at the very top:
"I'm happy and I'm healthy and if you're hating on me or my weight then you obviously aren't."  - Demi Lovato

Lots of love,
Ellie
x x x