Starting out

There have been so many times in my life where I wish I'd said something, or I wish I'd done something different, or I wish I'd not said anything at all. We all have these times. We all have those humiliating times where things go completely opposite to what you planned, and it feels like the world is ending. But then, we look back a few months later and smile. We think to ourselves, 'hey, that actually taught me not to do that again.' or 'hey, that just made me stronger.' 

I may just be 14, but certain things have happened to me that meant I had to grow up pretty fast... probably faster than your average person of my age. Don't get me wrong - I'm not saying I know everything; I'm not saying I'm an adult. I know for a fact that I'm still learning; on a daily basis, I learn things and realise things that I never thought possible. I still act like a teenager, I still need my mum like I need air, I still love pop music and talking about pointless things with my friends that won't affect us in years to come. But the things that have happened have affected other parts of my life, and so I've had to learn things. 

For a long time I've been thinking of starting a blog, but I always thought it was kind of weird for a 14-year-old to have a blog. But then I realised that there's bigger and worse things to worry about than what a bunch of teenagers think of me for having a blog where I share random things I make and think. And if you're someone I know, reading this right now thinking 'Wow, she's such a weirdo, who would want a blog' or 'what a freak, she thinks she's an adult', feel free to stop reading because... if you don't really like me and want to insult me... why are you reading in the first place? - Why are you so interested in me that you actually wasted the time to read this?

Anyways, I wanted to make this blog to share my thoughts. Because I'm an M.E sufferer (more on that at a later date), I spend a lot of my time in bed or stuck at home. So I wanted to share my thoughts with the world and share my paintings, music, jewellery - anything - with you guys. If you're reading this, thank you for taking the time to be interested in what I have to say. And if you're a person I know wanting to insult me and you're still reading this... seriously, what are you still doing reading this?

In 14 years, I've dealt with a lot. A lot. But who hasn't dealt with a lot at some point in their life? - Like I said before, at the end of the day, these little mishaps make us stronger. Sometimes, it's worth saving yourself a huge heartache and replacing it with a slightly smaller one. Sometimes, it's worth saying what you want, even if it's not necessarily the right thing, but it's worth it because it gets it off your chest. 
I called this blog "On a Journey", because although I feel like I've walked a thousand miles through wind, rain, sunshine and storms... I know I still have miles to go. I'm at the beginning of an amazing journey and it's gonna be a bumpy ride. It already has been a bumpy ride. But I'm on a journey, and I wanted to blog about it because... well... just because. 

I hope you like my posts, they'll be filled with (hopefully) wisdom, creativeness, random thoughts and pretty pictures. 

Lots of love, prayers and hope being sent your way.
Ellie x x